I am feeling tired today. Yesterday, I went to help elderly mom with grocery shopping and laundry. As usual, she expressed no interest in my life whatsoever. It has always been about her since day one. Worse, I cannot seem to generate any interest in my own life. I guess that's what happens when no one has really cared about you. I have no idea what to do with my life. I have no goals. There is no inner core of happiness or fun. Nonetheless, I keep trying and looking. For what and why, I'm not sure.

Today will consist of going to the bank, grocery shopping, free wine tastings and a Saturday night of doing laundry. I was going to try attending a meeting of asexuals this afternoon but changed my mind. I want a normal life but have no idea how to achieve that wish.