My life for the past few months has at times felt nightmarish. It all started January 7th, I smoked some marijuana, went into a psychotic state and tried to kill myself. I sliced both arms and my neck, which resulted in muscular damage, ptsd, anxiety, depression, and proper use of prescription medication. The doctors in the psych ward put me on celexa, and kicked me out after a couple weeks without really helping me with my problems. I was having major anxiety attacks and overall thought I was going insane.
After I was released I saw my psychologist, and she thinks I have bi-polar depression. She tried me on abilify, and xanax and that only made things worse, it made me restless, twitchy and paranoid. She then tried me on ativan and seroquel xr. The ativan made more paranoid, so I stopped taking it. The seroquel xr has helped me, but I feel so empty inside i'm not sure if it's helping me, or just covering up all my problems, like a bandaid on a sliced artery.
My question is, is it worth it to stay on the seroquel and feel empty, but remain sane, or take a chance and slowly ween myself off of it, to see how I feel drug free? I would really like it if someone with experience with seroquel could give me some advice. I'm on 200mg of seroquel, recently upped from the 150mg I was taking because I had a major panic attack, and was majorly depressed for a few days.