My t really cares and it made so happy I cried. After our tough session about abuse the other day, I kind of went a bit mad and told t I couldnt do it anymore via text.
The session was so hard and as it turns out where the abuse took place was just beside where my t lived...I didn't know she lived there otherwise I would never have told her that. She seemed really curious about it all and I think it struck a nerve with her.
I told her about my ex and how she abused me too, right from the moment we met. T asked me how she did it and what happened, she was horrified and afterwards I freaked out because I had never told anyone the extent in which my ex abused me and what she did to me. T s face went all red and she became agitated- moving around in her seat. She said it was so sad because I just want somebody to love me but just haven't found the right person yet. She asked why I like older women and I said they feel safer but that has not been the case for me anyway.
After the session I felt exposed and yucky, so I sent t text terminating.
She replied next day with the loveliest text nd i cried so much, that she cared. We agreed to meet up next week and talk about everything and then maybe take a few weeks off.
The details I told t keep goign around and around in my head and it feels horrible