In 1993, I lost a lab puppy from Parvo. It was a very, very hard time for me. What made it worse, I took the puppy to the vet who showed no compassion and who convinced me to put the puppy down due to our lack of money and inability to pay a huge hospital bill, but just a few months later I talked to someone who had treated their dog at home and their dog was able to pull through. It made me feel as though I'd killed my puppy! I also lived in a new place and had no one I could really talk to about it. The only thing that pulled me through was I was pregnant and the time and ended up getting very physically ill towards the end and I guess I couldn't cope with both so I got over it. It still bothers me to this day.

I'm sorry you're having a hard time and I don't have much advice for you other than life HAS to go on and that you're not alone with such feelings.