I don't know I guess I felt like putting him through al this **** and breaking up with him over and over must hind of hurt and mess with your head.
I don't know what to do. On one hand I'm thinking that I shouldn't get back into a relationship because it just stresses me out, I am always anxious. When I am single, I am more calm, I guess I just prefer to be by myself. Being around other people takes more out of me, it's kind of exhausting. I also have basically 0 sex drive.
On the other hand, I kind of feel like I should try again because if I don't push myself to try being in a relationship, I won't ever have more kids (Which I really want) And I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life, I do want to find someone. If I keep pushing guys away, I may never find anyone who will put up with me. PLUS...he's obviously patient...and says he will accept me no matter what.
Ugh...don't know what to do.