I'm so sorry to hear this. I empathize because I have had strong transference with my current therapist though that got worked through and now we are in a more real place if I can put it that way. What I mean is that after a tough time getting started, I went through a phase of puppy love and then full blown attraction. I was convinced that he felt it too by various things.

Eventually I realized that I was taking our intimacy and total trust and special relationship in terms of erotic categories, when actually those things don't need to be erotic. I realized based on my own history and also understanding how this culture contributes to making such a big deal out of sex, that there wasn't anything necessarily erotic, romantic, or sexual in the feelings. In fact, they felt more important and more real without the erotic overlay.

I'm still deeply attached and will never stop that as long as I live. He is the first person who has actually understood me from the deepest level (and I have a partner for 30 years). But there is something special about this type of relationship. When he retires, I will miss him terribly. Right now I can't imagine life without him.

On the other hand, he has helped me understand my own capacities and strength. What he calls my preciousness. That will help me move on without him.

With most therapy relationships, you end up internalizing part of the therapist as part of yourself. So even if the person actually ends up leaving your life, they are still inside of you. That can never be taken away.