I understand completely. I had a couple people tell me not to talk to them anymore. That pain never really goes away. The weird part is when you're falling and you really need somebody to be there, you stop reaching out because you try to protect them from you. That's where I am now. I'm trying to not push people away by being needy but it really makes you feel alone. It ****ing sucks. I try to vent it out here but I don't think it works as well as I need it to.