I've been trying to figure out lately really what's going on and why am I feeling this way. I've come to the conclusion that I've always had low self esteem and low self worth so I try to overachieve to gain recognition and validation from external sources that I'm not a piece of ****.

I guess now that I've graduated and moved, I don't have any external feedback to tell me that I'm not a loser so I'm crashing into what I've always been. I guess I don't think if I would be the best in the world at something or if I went to the moon it would be enough to make myself feel good about myself. Nothing feels like enough.

How can you possibly like what you are?