We did not take our meds and our son was not home last night. We don't usually drink because it is a depressant, but it was a cheap, legal alternative to all the other option I've been suggestion and it's the one I could convince everyone to partake in. I'm still sobering up. My liver is hating me. I was far less destructive then I had been in the past. Turns out my husband is probably in an up-swing. Going higher despite the risk of dysphoria was worth it, currently it was a good gamble. As I sober up I realize T's concern is about safety for everyone. For the first time in a while I'm thinking / talking in full sentence. BlueInanna It's not going to become a normal thing. I have to admit the break was nice. Starting to get back jumping thoughts now. you guys. Thanks for being my sanity at times.