I have been in the same relationship for 13 years. I have started blaming myself for it not working out. My boyfriend doesn't really participate in the relationship much.

I have become very lonely in the relationship, and out of my loneliness, I have gotten really mad at him. There were times where I told him I might drink some cleaning fluid or something like that for attention.

In my other relationships, I am fine. I am able to hold down a job. I do not drink, injure myself, or do drugs. I do have anger issues, and I carry some trauma and shame from childhood.

Does it sound like I may have Borderline Personality Disorder? Would you need to know more? My boyfriend allows me to feel like the relationship failing is all my fault!