I'm so sorry to hear about your puppy. Your grief is completely understandable. Pets are such an important part of our lives, sometimes we feel closer to them than the people around us. I cried non stop and fell into a deep depression when my cat of 17 years died. I honestly thought she was my best and only friend. Sorry you're having a hard time. Dealing with loss is such a difficult thing and everyone copes with it in different ways. I wish I could offer more words of comfort and support, but know we are all here for you. Sending hugs your way.