So here is a brief history on me. I left home when I was 17 years old ( Die to abusive family) and moved to a different country and I made up a new life, I lied about my ethnicity,i also lied that my parents died( at that time I thought this is the only way I can dissassociate from my past and start fresh) On the other hand, I have always had a steady job, worked my way through university, dont do drugs, drink, I realise I am not well as which sane person lies to people that your entire family died? I want to seek help but I am so scared that I might lose all the people in my life once I confess to them about my issues. After reading I am thinking have HPD?

Can Someone help me? What should I do next?