Now that i've realised what a mistake it was to move in the first place I want to move again as soon as poss, but realistically I don't have the savings to be able to move again now so it's semi-permanent, i'll probably have to stay here for at least a year to put enough savings behind me to move because i've taken a huge pay cut and demotion from the charity I work for as I can no longer work with the street teams or even get into one of the offices - the closest one is 55 miles away in the nearest city!

I did ask my T in our last session whether it would be possible to have phone sessions at least for a few weeks whilst I looked for a new T but she said point blank that she didn't do phone sessions and that she has a huge waiting list and it wouldn't be fair to leave a new patient in the right area for f2f work on the list to have phone sessions with me.

I literally live on an army base in the middle of a field 5 miles from the nearest small town and 55 miles from the nearest city. When I first moved here I did search on the BACP website but the nearest T is 14 miles away and specialises in issues completely different from mine, aswell as using and approach that makes me feel defensive just thinking about it :P

Syra- It is mainly that I just miss how well me and my T worked together and its daunting to think about trying to find another T on my own, i've never looked for a T myself my last one was recommended by a friend who had similar issues to me. But also living in such an isolated place where I don't know anyone I feel completely out of my element, i've always lived in the same big city 250 miles from here, I grew up there, I had friends, a support network. I guess it would have been easier to leave my T if I had been moving to somewhere bigger with more chance of finding the right therapist and actually making friends!