You do deserve to have help. If you wanted to just soak in the tub without scrubbing, you could. There is no rule that says you cannot. I have filled the tub with sweet-smelling bubbles (or just plain water) and just lazed in it like I was at a spa.

Your boyfriend could probably call his doctor's office and find out who is handling his doctor's emergencies while he is away. He might also ask the pharmacy what to do about getting enough of his medication to tide him over until the doctor gets back.

I don't know if this will help you or not. I have many of the same problems you do with general housekeeping, living, self-care. No doubt part of it is my profound depression. But I also know that some of it, much of it is because I am simply overwhelmed. I should have taken my daughter-in-law up on her offer to help but I was too ashamed. I believe this is a mistake.

What you might do is ask for help among who you think will help you. You and your boyfriend might be able to agree on one doing one chore, another doing something else. I often can do something for someone else I cannot do for myself (sounds crazy, I know).

I am not sure how these things work, but I always believe in asking; you might contact your own doctor and see if you can be directed to some agency that will help you with household and personal chores in the short term, until you start feeling better. I send you love and hope.