Welcome to the forum, Tacoma. I am glad you have joined us. May I ask why you are afraid to tell your parents? My fear of telling my parents was that they wouldn't care. I couldn't bear that. This fear persisted into my marriage. My husband didn't know I did this even after we had been married for 12 years. I just couldn't bear the feeling of invisibility that comes when someone doesn't care.

I was afraid to tell my T because I was afraid that he would make me stop. Or make me go to the hospital again. But, like you, I wanted to say something. I needed to say something. I found that getting it out in the open was crucial in my efforts to get better emotionally because once I could talk about my self injury I could truely be honest with myself about what was hurting so badly.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft