I dont post here much, mostly because my bpd is only an actual problem when love is part of the equasion....
Well here I am... after my last bpd explosion and more than a yr of silence, bf and I are back together. HOORAH!

Problem is the dude works 7 days a week most weeks and is studying! I do NOT have to elaborate do I?

I'm tired you know? Tired of reminding myself the truth, when he takes long to respond via text, I repeat "He's just busy, I'm not unimportant"....

Why can't my default thought be "he's busy" instead of the negative shyt my brain spews? He's been so amazing, and loving and things are just much better than before, so now I feel like I'm betraying him with these negative thoughts.

uhmmm pointless post. Its just that nobody else knows I have to counteract my default thought setting OFTEN. Its getting easier, like I dont panic and hyperventilate, break out in a sweat NOR do I want to chuck my phone into a wall anymore... but its still tiring.