It's bizzare, I started self harming when I was 6.

I started again when I was 15.

When I was 19 I thought; I'll be 20 soon; a proper adult and I will be old enough to get the courage to research and learn how to vent safely.

Now, I'm nearly 30 and still self harming. I thought by now I would have healed somehow. It goes to show if u don't deal with your pain, you internalise more.

It's my one wish that one day I will love my body and respect myself.

I'm seeing a T now and I'm telling her properly, I wish I had had the courage 15 years ago.

I truly hope all of you find your inner peace to, I urge you to see someone if you can before your habit becomes you.