from the start, i told myself not to look too much into it and not to think about it too much, which is what ive done. im not expecting anything long-term, like marriage or anyhting...ive taught myself not to do that. so ive never expected too much, or thought about long term things. just the here and now.

i will kepp trying, i mean, i said those things earlier when i was feeling abit gutted, i meant them, but i have thought longer about it now and realised not to let it slip past so easily. im not in work until monday now so i cant do anyhting until then.

im going to speak to rach (the friend julie was talking to, that i overheard) and i will talk to her about how i feel about julie and see what she says. me and rach are good friends so i know i can talk to her about it. see what happens from then.

but im certainly not looking too far ahead. i didnt mean for it to come across that way.

i will keep you all informed, and over the weekend i will build up my confidence, so wish me luck hehe...

simon