Oh, man. There is really a cockeyed view here somehow. You are valuable. Why you can't see that it is probably the result of skewed thinking caused by the strong depression you're experiencing? Please go in for an evaluation with a good psychiatrist and get on the proper medication to restore the chemical balance.

It's the chemistry, man, that needs correcting.

Because I'm an animal lover, I need to say just a little something about that. Having lived on a farm and watching animals from their birth 'til their death, I can tell you that they are sensitive (probably more so than humans in some ways). They are alert, intelligent, caring, and helpful. And they have emotions and memory.

When I look back on the times in my life when I have seen animals teach their young how to behave, what to avoid, whom to care for, and what is best for them to eat, etc., they are some of the fondest memories I have of the animal kingdom.

At moments, I almost feel as though animals deserve more love and affection than a few people I' ve met along the way--not either of you, of course.

I just hope you will find the way to restore the chemistry of the brain so that you aren't seeing yourself as less than a very valuable and important contributor to the life of others and their well-being.

Good wishes to both of you.