Thanks for all the advice. I forgot to mention I'm also beginning to walk and work out. I'm working on getting out of here, but it will be a few months before I can get the money together.

I have tried talking calmly to my roommate, believe me. She is in such denial of her faults. She gets very angry if I try to tell her something that bothers me. Today she was telling me that she gets very angry when people "say things about me that aren't true." How do you talk to someone like that? She refuses to see what she does wrong, and even if she sees that it's wrong, she has an excuse for why she does or doesn't do it. She is much more disturbed than I am, and a lot of people she thinks are her friends see it too. I've had them come up and hug me and ask if I'm o.k., because she goes around badmouthing me to them, saying I'm crazy. They've told me they know it isn't me, and that I should just get out of here.

Right now, I just stay in my room most of the time because I don't have a car, so I'm stuck here most of the time. I have a plan to get out , and all I can do is stick to that and not let anything get in my way. She is continually trying to upset me or sabotage me because for some reason, she doesn't want me to leave, even though I've told her it's not good for my mental health to stay here.

I put myself down because I know if I hadn't let the depression take over and if I had worked harder, I could be out of here by now. It's like I'm my own worst enemy.

Thanks for listening.