I've been able to keep from cutting while planning my husbands b-day party but now that its over the overwhelming feeling to cut is back and I can't stop it. The voices in my head keep screaming that I'm a bad girl and need to be punished and my headaches are more frequent too. I just don't know how to handle this situation alone. I can't talk to my hubby cause he just gets frustrated and upset over my cutting and doesn't understand why I do it. My therapist is out of town and the emergency # I can't find so I'm alone with all this sh** going through my mind. Cutting is my only option and I know I'll feel better afterwards just to release the pressure and the pain thats built up. I'll deal with shame another day when I'm in a better mood.

Lin-Lin