Oh, you've got our friendship, Speed.

Your husband's anger is partly grief; it's also frustration at not having things move along just as he would like. It takes time; he has to realize that. Next time he
threatens you ask him politely to see a psychiatrist for help, too.

Keep your guardian angels close by and keep posting as you need.

You're getting stronger; believe that; we can see it in your threads. You may
come out of this as the strongest you've ever been in your life. The fact that
you have faith and rely on that is very, very encouraging that you will grow
spiritually, and nothing can defeat that, in my view.

Take care of yourself, please.