Wildflowerchild, welcome. Your thread causes me to wonder if someone in your husband's family can be a trigger for you.(No need to answer here, but something you might think about.) Is there one member who makes it unpleasant for you or who is really able to push your buttons? That is not unusual at all, in my view.

While you're there tonight, make it a point to listen very carefully to what others say or think and see if you can get insight into what it might be that triggers you---if it does.

Also, I noticed that the cold, somewhat dark winter days are bothersome for you. Have you ever been tested to find out if you have a depression related to sunlight deficiency? Many people do have that--called SAD, as you know, and a special ultra-violet light might help.

The other things that might be possible are that you have an allergy of some sort or you may have unconscious depression. The best thing to do to help is to go in to see a psychiatrist and ask for help. It might be that you have just a little chemistry imbalance in the brain that needs adjusting with meds.

Take care; I enjoyed your post and hope you feel better soon.