Oh yes I can't stand my mother in law sometimes lol. She was rude and demanding the second we got to her house! Anyway I do know the winter is the worst for me. I have a happy light and I use it but it doesn't always help.

As for getting help I have an appointment on wednesday for a new therapist and a psych eval at the end of april. I saw a therapist three weeks ago but i didn't like him - he wanted to do thought field therapy which is related to accupressure and i am not down for people touching me. So i have been trying to hold on till these appointments.

I've had many forms of treatment in the past but i haven't been in treatment since 2007. Unfortunately I don't think I can do this anymore on my own so I'm going back and hopong for the best.