I have this exact thing. What really frustrates me is things I get a huge mental block about saying aren't typically that big in the scheme of things. Tinyrabbit, one thing I saw you post on and then delete was about retreating into fantasy. I've done this a lot since childhood. It's changed over the years, but never gone away. What's really embarrassing is that, over the last several months, I've basically developed an imaginary friend. I'm going to write down an outline of what I want to say and take it with me to therapy this week. I've been dreading this all week, but I know I need to explore this area of my life with my T.