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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
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calm the **** down and keep your shirt on...wait.. never mind take it off..
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Lets see...
He knows about my cray cray thinking (a bit too much)
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duh! this is obvious..
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but I'm not involving him in the details as this is what lead us straight to Sour Town repeatedly in the past.
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via the crazy train.. remember the crazy train leads to nowhere good..
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This time around, before we even discussed reuniting he let me know beforehand what his schedule is like, because he didn't want me to feel unwanted.
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I think this is something you should focus on often, because he is being sensitive to your issues and telling you everything upfront.
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And I told him he would no longer be my go-to guy for when the crazybug bites, because its my issues, my responsibilty. I cant just hand it over to him now and hold him responsible for my issues.
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This is good to know so that I can prepare myself for seeing A LOT more of you...
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But hoping for a reply, I still do, and thats what's kicking the wind out of me.
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I think to some extent this may be normal, however with our bpd it takes us beyond normal. The next time you notice this feeling try to decipher what is behind it.. is it possible that it's normal? is there a hidden fear or worry? you get the point. I think knowing this will be helpful..
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Most days we either text right through the work day, (he even wakes up earlier just to say morning to me and makes sure I'm safely in the bus) or right through the night because he was busy during the day. And when he cant talk he'll just send "thinking of u" texts or kissyfaces... but why oh why does this not make up for not replying immediately?
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It's good that you're aware of the good.. remain mindful of that. See above..
I think texting was the worst thing ever invented for us... What you experience is NOT uncommon.
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Why do I need an immediate response?
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Because you're crazy.. See my above response about trying to decipher..
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The world doesn't revolve around me!
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You have no idea how true this is..
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Practice practice practice riiight?
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For most people...lol
He is doing good things and it appears that he is being sensitive to you. It may help to write out a list of the good/sensitive things he has done/said to review when feeling triggered. This is an opportunity to learn, because the relationship has yet to be damaged.. Your at a cross road.. do nothing and board the last train to crazyville or try and adapt.. The fact that you are AWARE is good, but now I think you should try and figure out what the driving force is behind some of these triggers. I do believe once you figure those out you'll have a better idea of what you need to work on...
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PS. Yessssss! Cbox cares! 
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I hope all this makes some sort of sense.. My head is spinning it's either because I'm tired or your craziness has infected my brain... I need to try and decipher that..