Sometimes it seems like the farther we go in recovery the deeper we delve into our own minds and the scarier it can get... but we do learn more, we learn why we are the way we are, and what we want to be different, and slowly comprehend more of what we need to do to be different.

This was a very insightful post.

Also I was wondering if you are in counseling. I know it helps me a lot to talk out these feelings with my counselor.

I hope you feel better soon