I just worry about getting my 30 hours at work to keep the health insurance. My school is my only future plan right now. So mental health issues have to compete with my work hours (I would probably lose my sweet T if I lose health insurance) and school (which is why I give a crap about life/mental health stuff). I didn't have the gumption to explain that to Pdoc. Besides, she got a phone call and thought it might concern an in-patient and took the call. It wasn't so she told the person to leave a message and saw me out of the door. She was rather nice in the first two sessions except kind of pushy about talking to T in the second session. I wonder if it is because she has seen people get stuck on the drug and she knows that I don't want to get stuck on the drug. Or is it because I can get sad and get stuck in it rather than just doing a 8 month long episode. I mean my anniversary of starting therapy is at the middle of next month. My anniversary of the increase in negative thinking was the start of this month and the start of the sleeping problem was at the start of next month last year. Well, I don't have to see her much. I don't think my agency has many pdocs that are taking new people. That's why they hired her. I had to give her the lab hours because she didn't know them yet.