Hi ~ I can see where this would effect relationships with people. Plus it would be difficult to HAVE any intimate relationship with anyone.

Please have your doctor refer you to a good therapist. Your doctor would know who to refer you to. A therapist would be able to help you open up and learn how to experience your emotions. You DO have them -- you've just never been able to "use" them. For some reason you've repressed them, probably due to your upbringing. Your therapist will show you that it's "okay" to let them out -- to experience them completely, whether they're painful or not, and sometimes they can be. But in life there can be pain and to live fully, we HAVE to experience some pain in order to know joy.

So please see a therapist. You won't regret it. I wish you the very best and hope that you'll return here and let us know how it all turned out. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee