good morning
Hi, I am twenty six years old, and virtually since the death of my father I have being dealing with bad coping mechanism to deal with my life, with anxiety, loneness, and sadness. Getting back to the same bad habits when I am by myself, always brings me to the feeling that I am back to zero ground, that I have failed, besides all of this, I have the feeling of lack of empowerment of my own life, to not have control over it.
I have had a hard time studying, concentrating and being social during my school years, as well as dealing with many forms of anxiety, It has passed many years, and now I am seeing lots of the after effects of years of behaving in a self-destructive manners, I feel like my life it is being wasted, I haven’t done much and learn as much as I could, due to not being to have a peace of mind, I feel like I am loosing opportunities, that I am not growing as man and as person. I haven’t been able to break away for a strong and independent life, and to find a life where I can have new habits and to feel that I can count on me and that other’s can count on me back.
I do have a profession that I feel it is aligned with what I want to do in life, but it still lacks me skill, commitment to it and It is not what I am working with it right now
This is more a cry of help, from the part of me that knows that it is urgent to change, and wants more than anything to find life full of meaning again.
I hope that I can make things work once and for all.
Thanks already for just being able to you about this and to have this support.