*** Posible Triggers ****
Having read quite a few of the DID Alters stories, I somewhat feel like might have been misdiagnosed with MPD back in 97... But then there are some that are like .. Hey That's ME...
The T back then said she ID'ed about 6 Persnonality's (My Alters), each one created to cater for a specific social group that i interacted with... However regardless of which personality took over, it was always me. Note: I have blacked out a few times at larger social gatherings, (Always after some Alcohol intake). Woke up the next morning at home in bed, and get told this long elaborate story of what i did the night before. Since i've stopped drinking at social's this has not happened again,(at least that i can recall).
These personality's, I call them my Mask's, It's the Suit i'd put on so that i could manage the situation i'm in.. There's my work Personality, The one i put on just before coming into the office, This Happy go lucky guy that NOTHING can get him down, Even if i've had a screaming fight till 3 AM with the wife the night before, no one would notice a thing.. There's the Home Personality, The DareDevil, the Socialite, and then there's the Terrified little boy.
The biggest problem is in times of hardship, (or even if my mother walks into the room) that Last personality shows up. My wife has witnessed this and questioned me about it a few times..
Personally i could not really tell you what all the differences of these personalities are, however:
The Daredevil has taken some Seriously Dangerous risks in cars and Bikes, Totally wreaking a bike, and almost rolling a car.. I can actually track when this personalty has been driving (My car has Driver Behavior Telematics in the Tracker system), and on days that the Daredevil drives, my daily score drops from 9/10 to 4/10 Average..
My wife met and fell in love with the Socialite: Can sit at the bar for hours on end and have very intellectual conversations with just about anyone on just about any subject (even the boring ones).. The whole time sipping from a Jack's and Cola, that he never has to order. (This is the true story on how we met.)
Each of these Personalities come out to play exactly when needed, as each one over comes one or more of the Social phobia's, or personality disorders that I have..
Well the Terrified little boy is probably the real me as i cant remember...
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scuse me .. but i'm dis-lic-sic ... des-kic-lic ... dus-tic-sic .... ermm... F'ed in the head....
Why does the word that describes people that battle with language skills be spelled so flipping difficultly.
Whatever is eating at you must be suffering horribly.
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