A few months ago, I confessed to my therapist that I was having suicidal thoughts, soon I felt better and I did not have any thoughts like that again. For the past few weeks, I was having suicidal thoughts again, I did not know the reason, why I am having such thoughts and I really could not take it.

My last session with my therapist, I shared with her how good I felt about life. I have a session coming up soon, I do not have the confidence to tell her how I feel, I am afraid if she would think I am telling this for fun or just attracting attention ?
I am just very confused .