To be honest, I'm afraid to go off meds. I envy the courage of all of you willing to go off meds. On the days when I think about going off meds, I think it would be healthy to get a baseline to find out where I stand in regard to BP. I've been hospitalized twice for psychosis, but wonder if that was just a fluke. I'll take hypomania every time, but the depression is what really kicks my butt. I doubt I'll ever be off low dose ADs, but would like to try to get off the APs & mood stabilizers. I just fear I'd wind up in the hospital again & start making foolish decisions.