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Originally Posted by MPD-AvPD-BPD
*** Posible Triggers ****
Having read quite a few of the DID Alters stories, I somewhat feel like might have been misdiagnosed with MPD back in 97... But then there are some that are like .. Hey That's ME...
The T back then said she ID'ed about 6 Persnonality's (My Alters), each one created to cater for a specific social group that i interacted with... However regardless of which personality took over, it was always me. Note: I have blacked out a few times at larger social gatherings, (Always after some Alcohol intake). Woke up the next morning at home in bed, and get told this long elaborate story of what i did the night before. Since i've stopped drinking at social's this has not happened again,(at least that i can recall).
These personality's, I call them my Mask's, It's the Suit i'd put on so that i could manage the situation i'm in.. There's my work Personality, The one i put on just before coming into the office, This Happy go lucky guy that NOTHING can get him down, Even if i've had a screaming fight till 3 AM with the wife the night before, no one would notice a thing.. There's the Home Personality, The DareDevil, the Socialite, and then there's the Terrified little boy.
The biggest problem is in times of hardship, (or even if my mother walks into the room) that Last personality shows up. My wife has witnessed this and questioned me about it a few times..
Personally i could not really tell you what all the differences of these personalities are, however:
The Daredevil has taken some Seriously Dangerous risks in cars and Bikes, Totally wreaking a bike, and almost rolling a car.. I can actually track when this personalty has been driving (My car has Driver Behavior Telematics in the Tracker system), and on days that the Daredevil drives, my daily score drops from 9/10 to 4/10 Average..
My wife met and fell in love with the Socialite: Can sit at the bar for hours on end and have very intellectual conversations with just about anyone on just about any subject (even the boring ones).. The whole time sipping from a Jack's and Cola, that he never has to order. (This is the true story on how we met.)
Each of these Personalities come out to play exactly when needed, as each one over comes one or more of the Social phobia's, or personality disorders that I have..
Well the Terrified little boy is probably the real me as i cant remember...
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I dont see a question in your post so first let me say welcome and thanks for telling us about your internal system of alters..
there is a way for you to become less confused about whether you have DID (your words MPD) ...here in america theres now testing procedures to diagnose whether someone is DID or not. the testing is quite involved because first other mental, medical problems that share the same symptoms of having alters and other symptoms that come along with DID, have to be ruled out, but once the testing is completed most people if they have been completely honest/forthcoming/compliant with the process get accurate diagnosis of whether they have the disorder or not.
not to change your previous diagnosis but to give you a sense of hope if you dont believe you are DID (your words MPD) well...
sometimes someone will get diagnosed with other dissociative disorders if they dont fit the criteria for having DID here in america...for example if you were here where I live and work you may be rediagnosed to being DDNOS because with the way the DID diagnostics are wrote at this time with the presently used diagnostic criteria... the person being tested must have a very special kind of alter for at least two of their alters. these alters must take total control that causes the person to have a special kind of memory problem that goes beyond the normal realm of forgetfulness..since you never lose time and know everything that is going on unless you are drinking alcohol that diagnostic criteria for DID does not fit for you..DDNOS means the person being tested doesnt meet the diagnostic criteria for other dissociative disorders.
but the only way you will know for sure whether you have DID according to todays standards instead of the past diagnostic standards that you were previously diagnosed with is by going through the testing with a treatment provider in your off line locations. we cant do that here on this website.