Hey hun.. I know it hurts but hillbunny is right. See is much like an old deep scab left from a very bad cut.... you peel off that scab because its so ugly you can't take it anymore.. but dang it hurts like heck..... it even bleeds a while...and it has to heal... only to be pulled off again and again until it is only a scar left as a reminder.. but it doesn't hurt anymore....

Well, maybe it seems a bit sore now and then but no pain.. no bleeding.. no scab...

When I feel the most unsafe, I imagine myself as a strong, beautiful white she-wolf standing on a high ridge looking out across the mountains. I imagine my clan to be safely hidden in the deep forest.. waiting for me to return...

I imagine the wind blowing against my fur.. the smell of the coming snow... I imagine the peaceful feeling of knowing I am untouchable here in my mountain home with a wolf family to fight for me if the need arises... I am safe.. I am strong.. i am invincible...

I can only get to this vision if I breath.. slowdeep breaths in.. and back out.. slow.... the counselor I have taught me this and it has rescued me from many a panic attack.I wasn't able to open up to her for a long time and still haven't given her much of me.... it takes time.. be patient with yourself.

Faith