Hey, I really relate to quite a bit of what you wrote!

Especially the bit about the ex-t ( )

I think it would be worth giving therapy another shot. This time, tell the therapist as soon as you aren't happy. I think those skills can and need to be translated to friendships too. Don't let things fester........but don't be mean either. These are hard skills to learn. And a GOOD therapist, not a ( ) therapist, will really help.

BTW I am also looking for a new therapist. I am a terrible procrastinator though.... there are lots of reasons why I have delayed. My former T was also ( )

Keep posting! There is much to be learnt here, and lots of good people and bears