I gave up relationships with men so I could figure out how to have one with myself...spent soooooooo much time validating myself through others that I never never develope a good one with myself....now that I have, my whole perspective on the relationship has changed along with me. And the absolutely cool thing about it is that all that other crap that used to "HAVE" to happen in the meeting, getting to know, and ultimately becoming involved with someont...GONE....no more games....now instead of attracting messed up guys to my messed up self, I am attracting really cool, grounded happy folks....open and honest. I allow them to be them and they allow me to be me. But for the mean time, I'm rather enjoying just being me with me....whatever happens, happens...it's all cool.

So Seeker, you are so NOT sick as far as I am concerned. You are just fine!