Shawn.... boy do i understand what you are saying i have a similar problem i need to see a therapist of some kind but can't bring myself to go i would make the appt do the research and then never go i am afraid not sure of what though maybe it is that people won't believe cause the tears have never come for me cause im numb but eventually i will go and hopefully it will be a good experience

so u should go and receive help knowing that it had already worked for you their job is to believe and if you find one that doesn't believe find another one