YES!

Speed3, are you out there? Have you checked this thread since your original post?

Let us know you're OK. Please?

Don't let the way your husband feels drive you toward something terrible.

I can't begin to imagine what you're going through after having lost your son. My heart breaks for you.

I've lost someone I'm very close to several years ago, and I have not recovered. I don't think you EVER recover. I think you learn to deal with a different reality. A reality where that person is not physically here.

It may sound like it could never happen, but there will come a day when you think of your son and your heart is filled with happy thoughts instead of grief.