A younger cousin (15) died of alcohol poisoning almost 2 weeks ago. Then another younger cousin (16) went missing for 3 days starting the evening of his cousin's funeral...he was found out by the river, shot 10 times. Then Saturday, my husband and I's best friend...

It started with him and his girlfriend and her kids being gone on Thursday evening, someone broke into the house and set it on fire. They got back that night soon enough and put the fire out so it didn't burn the house down...but then early Saturday morning the same person (most likely) set it on fire Again...and all 4 of them were in there. He and one of the kids (girlfriend's daughter) got burned, but they are going to be ok (still in the hospital)...his girlfriend got burned really bad..they still might life flight her to a burn center. And her son died in the fire.

I have other earlier (last year) ones that still affect me...but these are the most recent. I feel hurt, angry, despair, guilt...and that is only what I can categorize.

The weird part, I guess is the absence of 'grief' and 'loss' in my post as well as within myself o_O I feel the hurt, anger, despair and guilt deep down...but my initial reaction is a mostly non-interested "Huh"...like 'you don't say' or something similar. *sighs* Anyone else have a similar reaction? (even remotely? :/) or am I really whack?