Wow, thank you everyone for so many replies, input, and encouragement! I'm hard put to answer everyone individually but I appreciate it all.

Today I saw the therapist whose personality disorder DX was putting me out of the service on a chapter. He said at this point with 3 MD's saying I am bipolar 1, he accepts it.

Funny thing I have noticed is, that therapists seem to want to normalize things. He kept saying he doesn't understand why I fell apart into a mess (his words) when I was doing so well. When I told him it was hypomania, not actually 'doing so good', he said it was sneaky to fool him. I explained the delusions I was having, and he said, well, monks do that too. I gave up.

I understand too what another poster said about the elephant in the room. I don't define myself by my DX, but it does have an effect on how I feel about myself, the things I have done, the things I may do.

It is also like dropping a bomb in group therapy too, I feel at least. We can talk about abuse or traumatic events all day long, but don't ever talk about a hallucination or a delusion. Cue the uncomfortable silence.

So, at least the dilemma is calmer about the DX confusion. Even the daft therapist has to accept that I am not a liar to be able to fool three MD's in a row.

It is still to be seen whether he will do the right thing and initiate my med board, which I should have with a DX of BP - not just getting kicked out.

Thanks so much everyone. I am thinking I may start posting here; I feel very isolated as BP in group therapy and individual therapy. It's like you feel penalized for wanting to talk about anything to do with BP - "it's just a label, you are the way you are" is getting old. Thank you!