Hi all,

I don't normally post on this forum but in T on Friday the r*** that happened to me when I was 18 came up and now I'm wondering how to deal with it. Is it something I have to talk about to deal with or is there another way to do it? I'm struggling with it big time now normally I can just push it away and be ok but lately that hasn't worked. I've been having nightmares and crap about it. It WON'T go away. UGH!!! I hate this. The worst is when I have to see the wench that did it to me. She is pure evil. How does a 38 y/o do that to an 18 y/o? I mean really? I know it can be worse but supposedly she "loved" me. How is that love? GOD I hate her so much. I'm so confused about my feelings right now all I know is I'm pissed off about it not hurt or anything else...just pissed off. What do I do to start working through this?