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Originally Posted by beautifulfreak
Miss, I can totally and utterly relate with the trigger of a social event. I am glad you shared that post. It's so difficult being in a situation and feeling so alien to it all.
Miss, I feel for you, I honestly do and I understand.
Can I just ask, and I not sure you feel same but do those situations make you feel unsafe? What I mean is…when I at social event, I feel like an alien, plus, nowhere to run and nowhere to hide. That's what I mean about unsafe. Plus, when drinking away to make myself more sociable I end up crying…nearly every single time. I know I am a freak.
I am in my thirties also, well, the wrong side of 35! You know a bit about me by now anyway Miss! I am in relationship 16yrs but it doesn't feel like a relationship anymore…it feels like he is caring for me and he has said that too.
Oh, and another thing about what you said about feeling like a teenager trying to interact etc. I cried reading that because I feel that too…I often think I am part of the 'Peter Pan Gang'.
It is so frustrating that I in a totally different timezone to you guys.
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Thanks for the reply Beautiful. Sounds like we are on the same page as I understand what you mean. I definitely feel like an alien when at social situations and feel trapped! ( the ridiculous thing is there have been times when I've lost reality for a while and thought perhaps I really WAS an alien as I just have never felt I fit in with his world)
I end up crying most times too. Usually I can wait till I get home and my partner has to deal with it, but sometimes I can't and ill run to the toilets and cry into my head for ages.
Glad I'm not the only one who feels the same about feeling like a teenager. Its like I've grown older in body but i still feel lost like a 15 year old. Im still finding out how people work, stuff 10 year olds understand. Perhaps being bullied for many years from the age of 7 right through high school made me wary of people and unfamiliar with they way they work.
Leading up to social events i am a wreck! For many years i had to be drunk before i left the house. Now I'm doing things less intoxicating these days but some days i will have major panic attacks, freak out so much and half the time i wont up up attending as I have worked myself into a state there is no coming back from. Its a horrid thing. Sorry you go through it too. Hugs to you!!
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