Tomorrow (Wednesday) I have therapy. I really don't want to go. I don't think I'm paranoid but really don't see the point. I can't really hold a conversion. The only good thing is t gets a lot of information out of me. I hate when T & pdoc are in the same building! I don't want to be tore down, I known what comes next. I want to be happy until then. I'm pretty sure t will see me get mad at my husband for talking to slow and being long winded. I know I have to go but I want to at least move my pdoc appointment back. 3+ months is not long enough! I'm rational now why take it away when it's not harming anyone. I know it'll take awhile to get to a new therapeutic dose. I guess I just hate them in the same building and am complaining. Sorry for my ramble. Any words of encouragement or thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I may be worried that T will over react to my resent thoughts and activities.