Hi, i introduced myself in the welcome forum. But will go over a little background of me.
I have been married over 20 years. My situation is of one of a strange nature.
For the last 10 years of our marriage we had an open marriage , basically swingers, with some bi-sexuality going on, for both of us.
But I finally was over that type of lifestyle and no longer wished to participate in it for health and spiritual reasons, and i think this is the straw that broke the camel's back, so to say, why he has decided to end the marriage.
I am totally devastated to say the least, we are not been officially divorced yet, and he sees other women, which digs the knife deeper into my heart.
I just need kind words and support.
I have many physical/mental ailments which have also contributed in part to dissolving our marriage.
I likely have MS am currently under going testing, and a very severe form of IC (interstitial cystitis), its a disabling bladder condition, and i have been through every avenue to help lessen the symptoms to no avail. i am left taking a high dose of pain meds, and nerve meds, and relaxants, and without those meds, would not be able to live day to day.
We have two children, the oldest being an 18 year old boy, and a 13 year old girl who also presents with many disorders as well.
She was dx with autism at 3, but that has proven to be misdiagnosed, and we are currently seeking new updated dx of her issues. As she does many things an autistic person cannot do, one being lying profusely, most autistic people cannot easily make up fallacies and stories off the cuff like she can. But I know when she is lying because i know her so well, she is like an appendage of me.
Recently she made a video of her self reacting to a video on the internet. In reality when she first actually saw said video, my son told me she laughed and giggled all the way through it, not a typical reaction to video in question.
But the video she made of her self pretending to react to this certain video, was so convincing, that if she was not my daughter, I would have completely believed she was watching the video and that her reactions to it was genuine, she is that good of an actress, most autistic people cannot pull that off. she presents more with bipolar and ADHD, and tourettes, as she has tics which differ from the stims of autism. In early years I have learned that autism can completely mimic the exact same behaviors in children who have tourettes.
So that's my story in a nutshell, I do not present with much mania as my daughters does, i tend towards the clinically depressive end of the spectrum.
My husband denies having any issues.
Son has managed through his own will power to work through his bipolar/adhd issues on his own, and is completely competent w/o meds, and does quite well. I am amazed at how he has turned his life around. And a bit jealous at the same time, wishing I had that capability and will to do that as well.
Again I am here for support and to give support, as helping others tends to help me heal inside as well.
Peace...