Thanx for the replies. My three older sisters get really irritated at me. One of them gets real snappy because she pushes herself so hard--but then she is always in pain, always falling apart, always getting sick and makes it hard for others to be around her. My very oldest sister has also struggled with depression and now she is also trying to push herself, but then the same thing is happening to her that is happening to my other sister. They all think that I'm just lazy, unmotivated, not wanting to be involved with the family, etc. (What they don't seem to remember is that I was the one who was always bullied by my siblings--not my 2 youngest sisters, but my other sisters and brothers, and I'm the one who's always on display at family get togethers.)