I wasn't 100% sure I was going to do it until I showed up at T and realised I was feeling my current age, that I'd brought the part of me who knows it's okay to talk. I told him I didn't want to wait years and years to disclose just because I thought I should. That I didn't want to talk about it again, but I did want to let the knowledge in the room.

My T is great. He is making up for all the previous rubbish experiences. I did see a psychologist when I was a teenager and he just gave me relaxation tapes, which were not what I needed.

I don't think I dissociated, as I got the gist, but can't really remember exactly what he said. I think that's why I had to go as me, now. So I wouldn't dissociate. The whole cards thing worked really well, might do it again, it just seems to mean a safe way to share stuff in my head now.

Thank you for your support