dont be so harsh on yourself.we are not god,neither we are evil.
we are just human who make big mistakes.

even if no one person is present in yr wedding its better to acknowledge that,after all u two are happy,u dont need meery speeches and a lots of friends to have a wedding.its just customary to have these but actual love does not need these.
dont hurt yrself in this way,u care for yr bf.its evident.u r alive,yr bf loves u.give him a fighting chance.jst remember u have to come out of the drama triangle..that needy greedy love.
im trying hard too.
my family doesnt like my soulmate.her family doesnt like me.
so perhaps we will have a handful of friends in our marriage.
dont be sad.
i have made too many big mistakes too..im jst working harder to avoid any new BIG mistake.
i know my girl loves me n i wont disappoint her.god give u strength for bearing this pain.n thanx for sharing.i know there is someone who have the same problem like me.