I don't get that feeling here too much. For one thing, I guess I don't start my own thread asking for help very often, and when I do, someone has always responded. I don't keep track of who replies and who doesn't - it isn't necessary for everyone to respond to me, or even everyone whom I have recently answered or anything like that. The main thing is often that someone has read, understood, and accepted my feelings, and if anyone has advice for me, that's great. Just being here among people who understand goes a long ways for me.

Another thing is, I generally get faster and more satisfying replies here than I do writing to my (former???)T. I don't even know where I stand with him anymore. I can't see him for therapy anymore, but he says we still have a therapeutic relationship, and that I should keep writing to him. But I feel like I'm just always pestering him, and need constant reassurance about that. I probably drive him nuts. I tell him that I can't think of any reason why he should care about me or all the junk I send him. Once in a while he says that he does care, and wants me to keep writing, but he hasn't answered me in more than 3 weeks now (since I told him that there was stuff I wanted to talk to him about but couldn't because I had convinced myself again that I was just pestering him), and even when he does reply, he just doesn't say much. I may as well be talking to a wall! So posting here is much more satisfying.

Feeling like people don't care about you or are mad at you seems to go along with having low self-esteem. There seems to be a lot of that going around here lately. Then when someone posts that they don't think anyone cares about them, or that only a few do, it hurts people's feelings and makes them feel bad for not showing that they care enough, but so many people are so fragile (sometimes if not all of the time) that no matter how much everyone tries to show their concern and appreciation, they will still doubt it.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Fuzzy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Everyone}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Wendy

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>