I know I know, the title itself makes me sound like I'm a narcissist in denial.
But honestly, lately I've been irritated/dissatisfied a lot, and I have not felt this way before (not PMS related).

Then I remembered a quote (if someone knows who said this, credits to his/her wisdom) that you should always look to yourself when you feel annoyed with others- and ask, why am I reacting this way?

I asked myself several times, and most times I came up with two common reasons:
1) I used to, or still have, similar traits which I found undesirable and managed to/ are still trying to rid myself of. I see it in others and it annoys me.

2) I strongly believe I can do something better but I have to hold myself back for reasons such as (a) not to hurt/offend/ appear insensitive (b) not wanting the responsibility of a huge project.

I instead assured myself that I could be more useful/comfortable in other areas/ with other people who could appreciate me more.

At the end, I managed to use my irritability into motivation to work on things I've procrastinated on/lost interest in. I dislike how most people say how negative feelings can be 'converted' into positive.. I think it's what it always is, maybe emotions are things which we could grab onto and wield as a tool if we know how.

We are always trying to reject and fight negative emotions.. is it the right fight? Irritability is still very much a part of me, but I'm not ashamed or depressed about its parasitic nature. It definitely pushed me beyond a period of impasse with life.